Missing

The past few weeks I have been missing things, or people and places I should say. Almost a year after we were married we moved to an old dirty house outside of La Grange. It was really dirty and filled with bugs, but it was home. We found a church and settled into our little niche. I loved my job. Probably more than any other job I had before it. I love my friends. I say that in the present tense because I still love them, even if I rarely see them.

I remember dinners at our dirty old house out in the middle of nowhere. The friends who would drive just to spend time with us. I miss it so much. I miss friends that were so near and you could really share life with. Not just the in's and out's of your day.

Even though I know we are where the Lord has put us and that, that particular season of life is over, I still miss it. I also still feel like it is missing in our life now. I want that kind of friendship in person. Not just over the phone. I want to be such good friends with someone that I could just stop by their house anytime and be welcome and visa versa. The only thing I don't seem to miss is that dirty old house. Although the quiet of the country life was very pleasant and the views of rolling hills were great.

It makes me wonder if I will ever have that again. Making friends is just so hard. Not just casual friends. The really good ones that know all about you and still like you. I feel like we are "niche"less. I have two great friends that live in Dallas. One of them has known me forever it seems and still likes me. The other, we have known each other for a few years but are just getting to the really deep stuff. I don't just want that over the phone or for short visits. I want it here.

I know there are different seasons of life where we have different kinds of friends and friendships but tonight I am saddened that there are many great friends out there I don't get to see and talk to as much as I would like. To all my friends out there. You know who you are, and I miss you!!